okay one more...then im done for the night..i promise!...soo..something i have been thinking about quite often is HOW COME im the only one in my family who has a difficult time staying in one place?...how come I am the one that acts on that desire to travel and life somewhere else?...why do i have the desire to LEAVE everything I am comfortable with?..why do i push myself out of that comfort zone?...i think its because when I am out of my comfort zone i am challenged in a way that i never would have been if i would have stayed amidst the blanket of comfort...so then these thoughts bring me to the foreward in Donald Miller's book Painted Desert..a book I have not yet read, but I am obsessed with the Foreward..and frankly if the foreward captivates me...then i should try out the rest of the book!...but in this foreward he simply speaks of the book that we call life...-------

We get one story, you and I, and one story alone. God has established the elements, the setting and the climax, and the resolution. It would be a crime not to venture out, wouldn't it? It might be time for you to go. It might be time to change, to shine out. I want to repeat one word one for: LEAVE. Roll the word around on your tongue for a bit. It is a beautiful word, isn't it? So strong and forceful, the way you have always wanted to be. And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don't worry. Everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed!

and after reading this...i think...i know why i travel...i know why i love adventures..but i also know why I do love the comfort of home...because its nice to have a place to come back to..to ground yourself...where people know the person you were before you left...but then i ask..what is home exactly??..it is simply a place?..is it the people?..or is it your belongings and material things that create a sense of home?...so many different meanings for one word

..ohh..I truly am a woman of many unaswered questions....and these circular questions as my brother would call them will continue throughout this entire blog..and throughout my entire LIFE!

Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn’t do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover. - Mark Twain

why is it that soo many people speak of exploring...of dreaming...of discovering but they dont actually do it??...is it fear?...is it obligations and responsibilities that hold them back?...

Everyone, when they are young, knows what their destiny is. At that point in the lives, everything is clear and everything is possible. They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their own destiny-- alchemist

my favorite book....for those of you who have never read The Alchemist you are truly missing out..the author is Paulo Coelho...and the reoccuring theme is listening to your heart and truly following your heart...and i just wonder why soo many people lose sight of the desires of their heart? or maybe its not that they lose sight of them...its just that they arnt as important as they were say...10 years ago...or 5 years ago...why do people stop dreaming as time goes on?..

okay truly..im done for the night..way too many posts for one day!